Haven been blogging for quite sometime le... ya.. busy...

Last week was my bday... had many cross feelings... dunno how to say... anyway... kl, candy, yuling, josh n juan celebrated wif mi... had dinner at Fullerton Hotel... ya... Fullerton... 1st time ever had a dinner there... buffet... Thanks for everything that u had done to make mi happy n helped mi... i appreciated it... but... ok nvm... wat i need to told him had already been told... So many feelings at that moment when im allow to see... "angry sad glad guilt thankful...etc." My family, vanessa, hanni n wen yi didnt manage to send mi a bday wish on that day itself.. really disappointed n sad... All of dem has explained to mi except for vanessa... hu still 4gets bah... anyway... had already met hanni for dinner le... Jie thanks for the dinner... jus feel that we getting more unclose liao... she busy wif work... n als o bf... no time for frenz... miss the olden days that all of us sit together n hav dinner after dancing... but that’s was already few yrs ago... everything had changed...

Went to help my juniors to make up for their performance on Sun as requested by edmund... "gd lobang" yar... since a few months i saw him again... ya... things start to flash across again... but... k... i will stop here...

So... wat im i busy wif recently...? Work... n finding full time job... went for a few interviews le... haha... tml having another 2... i had rejected a company for their job offered as a Customer Service Rep... $1500/month... cos i dun like the environment... mi very fussy n fickle minded de lah...

Sometimes jus dun like hu i am now... so emotional... blur... low adaptability... slow learner... fat... i jus dun understand y still cant face the reality??? Im I STILL IN MY LALA LAND... ya... my blog name say so... ok crap... Had a meet up wif 1 of my poly fren yday evening... found out that actually we had quite many similarity... izit cos we are both cancerian? I guess so bah... Only Cancerian will noe how a Cancerian thinks n feels.. n somemore he is jus 3 days elder... so both of us r born in the middle of cancer... means we r very cancerian... haha... wat im i talking abt... He said that Cancerian always look back... ya... i agree... Not that we ourselves wanna look back... it was jus automatically... Ya... n i jus find out that all my closer fren not even 1 of dem is a cancerian... so wat it means...? Dunno... Anyway... i did believe in horoscope in some ways... So out there ( Aries, Taurus, Gemini, Leo, Virgo, Libra, Scorpio, Sagi, Capri, Aqua n Pisces)... dun think u can feel wat i feel n vice versa... cos we r diff... haha... not funny... "Wat talking mi???"

Feeling... Breathless...
(If committing suicide wun go to hell, i probably had...)